Showing posts with label obsession. Show all posts
Showing posts with label obsession. Show all posts

October 30, 2012

Obsessed: Contacts edition

I've wanted blue eyes probably since I was a toddler. My favorite barbie was always the light skinned one with the platinum blonde hair and blue eyes (no way in hell was I gonna accept a brunette barbie). I've always admired colored eyes. As a child, seeing those American movie stars with different colored hair and eyes were so cool. It was boring in the Philippines. Everyone had black hair and brown eyes. Even seeing a halfer was special (although parents should beware that your halfer or Caucasian child has a high chance of getting kidnapped, just saying). I always loved blue eyes and blue used to be my favorite color. Obviously things have changed...

Anyway, I first got contacts when I was in middle school, seventh grade. I hated glasses and after being hit with a soccer ball in the face during soccer practice while wearing glasses, I was done with them. I remember I begged my parents for colored contacts. My mother was always against it because she said I would look ridiculous (she still says that). For many years I went through life that way, pretty unsatisfied with my boring brown eyes. It's not even a nice light brown like my mother has. It's the dark brown kind that looks almost black. That is definitely nothing special.

Anyway, when I got into college ( I swear, I don't know why but everything happens in college), my mother actually agreed to buying me some colored contacts! Must have been my years of nagging and begging that annoyed her into finally agreeing. So she got me a pair of gray, green, and hazel contacts. I loved all of them, gray the most and hazel the least. My mother didn't like any of them and she said I looked like a freak (such loving words). When I wore the hazel ones, she said I looked scary and looked like a vampire. Still, I wanted blue ones. She got every other color except for the one I specifically asked for: blue. I got the blue ones eventually. They are currently my favorite colored contacts.

Anyway, I wore those colored contacts all the time. I barely wore the clear ones anymore. In my perspective, I just don't look as good without them. With them, I feel pretty. Without them, I feel boring and forgettable. Yes, I know I'm all insecure and I shouldn't have to rely on such things to make myself feel pretty and whatnot. I'm working on that part. But I'm young still, it's kind of the norm at the moment. I'm sure I'll reach that whole self-acceptance phase in my later years.

Then (as expected, this happens in college), I got introduced to circle lenses. Part of this has to do with Sandy because she is pretty much my only friend who wears circle lenses ( I don't mean that in a bad way!). But her input helped. I asked her a bunch of noob questions probably before I got them. After I got my first circle lenses and tried them on, I was addicted. Probably bad but I wore them like they were normal lenses. And of course, the addiction continues...


October 28, 2012

Obsessed: Hair edition

I am obsessed with hair. I just think hair is so much of your look. It frames your face. Depending on the color, it can make you glow or wash you out. The cut is important to compliment the shape of your face. It's pretty amazing how much hair can impact how you look and how different you can be once you change it. I think that's why getting a hair cut or a new color or style is such a big deal in changing yourself or going to a new phase in your life. It really does make you feel and look different.

I've had this dilemma all my life. When I have short hair, I want long hair. When I have long hair, I want short hair. When I have medium hair, it could go either way. I have gone through a spectrum of lengths ranging from an accidental short bob to down my back and to my butt. Fringe bangs, side bang, short bangs, long bangs, wispy bangs, heavy bangs, and of course, no bangs. I've had my natural black hair to brown to an even lighter brown to a reddish brown then to jet black.  I've decided now that jet black looks best and I'll probably stick with that from now on. But the length issue still remains.

Freshman year of college, while in my short hair phase (still in that phase by the way) I was introduced to clip in hair extensions. It was the solution to one of my most mulled over problems! And in going with what I usually do when I discover something new that I like, I compulsively buy. Got my first extensions sophomore year, fall semester. Here I am about a year later and I now have extensions to last me for quite a while.



I do mean it when I say I was buying them compulsively. Sometimes I can relate almost to those girls on "My Shopping Addiction" because I never tally up all the purchases for this. I do keep track of how much I pay though to ensure my next purchase will be around the same price or hopefully lower. But, and this price may shock you, the total amount of money I have spent on all this hair is about... *cue drumroll*

$340

Yes, I was surprised about it too. So I've told myself I'm not buying anymore hair until the sets I have now crap out and need to be replaced. That won't be for a while. Oh gosh, seeing that number makes me feel so guilty.